would you like me to keep you warm?

paper boats, paper boats
we all float away
were larger than we feel
but smaller than we look
"i need mystery!" you cry
"i need magic!" you yell
your eyes twinkle as you hold to the mast
the mast is a pencil
its yellow and sturdy
you say "i swear well find a better place"
the water swirls in circles
its deeper than we think
its adorned with a layer of leaves and flowers
they swirl with the wind
were carried for days and miles
our small paper boat is now wearing thin
and we shoot a leak or two or four
were allowing in what we have always kept out
this strange land requires that we have holes
to make up for the things we have missed
the water congregates in small pools
it sparkles in the gleam of the moon and the stars
you whisper even quieter now
"i think i have gotten the hang of this"
the glow casts shadows on the water
trees line the shores
their branches sing with the birds
in harmony they sound
they resonate through the night
the bright night

we are never a surprise
were the best at staying docile
but you better not let me escape from this unscathed
they know i need the pain, i need the shit
"another day, another day" you scream
"leave me alone!" i weep and whine as your insecurities repeat
"im busy making paper airplanes for us both, they'll fly us out of here"
i don't trust anything i can stain with evil words
much less something i can renew with an eraser
because nothing deserves a second chance
in the beginning they were unheard of and in the end they'll be undone
we deserve a new beginning
"fly away!" you scream "fly away! im trying to help you still"
whats the difference between this and that?
here and there have the same theme only different details
the words scribbled on walls paint a prettier picture
tree branches grant rich apples
and fish search for your nets
"FLY AWAY!" you scream "FLY AWAY! im done. they'll hold us both over these seas"
but a flood will come
but a bird will peck
but a parent will nag
in the end its all the same
im exactly where i started
"thats exactly where we left off" you reply

PART I
teach me how to breathe
teach me how to fake living
ive got to find a way to make them think im okay
ill rip this umbilical cord out
you cant always count on me
cant always count
one, two, three, four will always be there
one, two three, for you theres nothing here
fly, fly away
rip, rip through walls and roads and chains
motors working overtime and hearts beating double time
let them explode, let us implode
theres nothing left here
nothing left
your blink is so naive
its a fucking shame to see you close your eyes
you realize youre still such a young girl
so innocent and devious
so inexperienced and presumptuous
well never fake it like they did
well never fake it like they did
never fake it like we could
this headache splitting my neck
straight down the spine and through the chest
i call this disappearing

PART II
how would you like me to keep you warm?
would that ease your pain for a few moments?
collapsed under spindly tress
so dead and absent of leaves
if the ground unfolded and ate us both would you cry at what you couldve done?
my body spasms and returns to a concrete form
my screams and crys flood out like wasted alibis
WHO ARE YOU?
WHO ARE YOU?
im burning and my hands are melting
i see pools of me and i cant hide from myself so run
yes you, stay away you cant see me this way
you come to this place and the smell of sulfur fills your nostrils
it burns all the way down to your lungs
the sight of sweat stings your eyes
the feel of hate grazes your skin
is it what you thought?
smokestacks rise from bitter black skylines
lead pipes jut from violent angles and your spine tingles
metal surrounds you
metal engulfs you
your cheeks cool to the temperature accustomed
youre no longer different

PART III
you walk alone
eyes stare a you with scorn
my hand holds yours and you feel empowered
rise against
your spine tingles and heat attacks you
you feel it melting you
incinerating your core
WHO ARE YOU?
screams flood from your chest and strength injects you
eyes fly from sockets and jaws drop to drum lines
sirens and sirens
they shriek and they all march
a horizon approaches
dont close your eyes, dont close your eyes
theyll see your weakness
hate circles you
fuck them, theyre jealous hold your head high
their spines tingle and hearts explode
you see them collapse under skies of blue
WHO ARE YOU?
the ground unfolds and sucks you in
i call this disappearing
do you cry?